HeiwaMegami

The last few months have been busy. Between 5 AP courses, all of the college searching and applying, and just trying to keep my social life somewhat afloat, I haven't posted much at all since December. While I do plan on continuing with art on DA, I can by no means keep up a relatively normal uploading schedule.

I do have a set of redraws in the works, but progress involving some of my oldest OC drawings from 2013 to some newer ones. The first which should be done in the next couple weeks, if my schedule allows (fingers crossed), is my old Cheshire cat character Kane.

Last order of business is my poetry. My last journal was about how I took down a few of my poems to submit to a competition and maybe some publishers. Well, I submitted the piece Warrior (after some editing) to a regional competition for high schoolers and won for the category! This has majorly improved my confidence in my abilities and have been more seriously considering applying to a publisher as I have written several pieces since then. Whether I commit or not is yet to be seen, but my love for writing has definitely strengthened. Andddddd, as a member of my school's creative writing club, I have regularly been responding to given prompts, so I am considering putting a few of those on here.

So, for those of you who don't know, I enjoy writing poetry and short prose. For years I've considered submitting my poetry in various competitions and to some publishers. I have decided to pursue these ambitions and as such you will find in the upcoming days that pieces I am considering submitting will be removed from my gallery.

Not every piece will disappear, just some of my newer pieces and a few older ones. As of yet, I have not determined a set date for when I can safely repost them without risking disqualification. So that said, with a somewhat heavy heart, these pieces will be removed indefinitely. When I figure out a set date they will be reposted brand new and hopefully in edited glory. Below is a list of pieces I have removed or intend to remove. This list is fluid and I will update this journal as I remove or resubmit pieces.


1. Warrior
2. Warrior's Wife
3. Ruinous
4. New Birth
5. Pier

Inktober has brought me back from the depths of my slumber and into the world of art once again. Alright, that might be a stretch to say, but it is true in some respect. I've been posting on and off again, but I can now say that I am back to stay.

My medical situation is stabilized for the most part, and I've finally gotten back into a rhythm with my schoolwork. The last few months have been stressful, and it's been ages since I've felt that horrible mentally and physically. The support from my friends, family, and even several people from this site truly helped me through everything.

Now that I am back I'll give a little breakdown of what I'm planning these next few weeks. Expect two digital pieces soon, one is a request and the other is a contest piece (that said, requests are in no way open again, and I may not open them for a long time.) I'm not the best with digital, so this will be a challenge. Im working on a fanart that should be down in the next few days too. I haven't decided if I'll be posting my Inktober pieces in batches or daily like I have been quite yet.

I really hoped it wouldn't have come down to this. I originally believed I could handle juggling my personal life and my online presence, but it has become obvious to me now that this is not the case. I will be going on hiatus, I'm not quite sure for how long, but hopefully it will only be for a few weeks top.

As of this February I have been having medical "episodes," and I use this term because it has yet to be diagnosed. Initially my physician believed they were seizures, though he is now leaning towards complications with my heart. Please forgive me, but I am still somewhat uncomfortable discussing the specifics regarding the episodes, but I understand if anyone is curious and I'll answer any question within comfort to the best of my ability.

I bring this up as these episodes mentally and physically drain me after occurring, and as of late it has started to affect me outside of the episodes. I've slowly lost the ability to do some basic everyday activities. Walking up and down my staircase leaves me breathless and my hands have become noticeably shaky at some points. I have already had one major accident where I was pinned under a bag of rice for around twenty minutes after I collapsed when I tried to pick it up, and it still terrifies me since it happened when no one was home. 

I've been in and out of appointments the last few months and sadly, I do have more appointments scheduled for the near future including one to discuss the results of my heart monitor and brain scans with my GP. The results of these appointments will determine if I have to extend my hiatus to include recovery and treatment times.

I honestly planned to have done a ton more on Deviantart the last few weeks- including some new projects I have been working on- but the frequency of my episodes has increased and once I have one I am out of commission for the rest of the day. I do apologize for my lack of activity, especially on the request front. I feel horrible for making people wait for so long, but rest assured that I will be actively working on these requests. I honestly feel like a terrible person excusing my actions, or lack there of, like this but I do hope you understand. I am trying to log in daily- I will continue to do so- and I will be pushing myself to finish up pieces, but I won't be trying to go past my limits. I might be able to post a few pieces during the hiatus, but I will make a journal when I am for back for sure.

I'm so sorry for the inconvenience.

Stay safe and have an amazing day!

~Heiwa

       I have been trying to decide which one of my OC groups I want to expand upon for the last few weeks, and I've narrowed it down to a few groups. I'd like everyone's help deciding based off of what interests you the most. (I wish the poll system wasn't just for core ;-; ) Please comment below which group is the most interesting.

 Misfits: Follows a support group created by a few friends for the outcasts and bullied at their school. Anyone, including those who most people would normally avoid or judge, are welcome as long as they don't bring other people down. The Misfits are a group based on acceptance, and the expansion would focus on the original members' stories and that of the newest generation at that school and their growth into their community. This would include all of the main members' backgrounds.

Examples of the characters: Tristan, Crys, Keats, Aster and Simon


 The Masked: The masked are normal people with normal anxieties, fears, and phobias. Their masks, seen by all, hide who they are from the world around them. This group focuses on the several stories of people with masks and how it affects them throughout their lives. A warning though, this heavily revolves around the idea of coping with depression, battling suicidal thoughts, and overcoming eating disorders.

Examples of the characters: Amy, Nikki, Liam

 The Soul Bound: Revolves around the integration of demons and supernatural beings into the world of humans through a process called Soul Binding. The caster performs a ritual in which a creature from the "Cursed Realm" becomes attached to their life force. The type of creature is based on the strength of the caster's soul. As the process becomes more wide known and used for personal use, mayhem ensues. Stronger demons can somehow break the bond and wander the world with no way to return them to their world. Caster's and their demons are limited and monitored, and the elite of the Casters are hired to kill the hostile demons in the world. The focus is on the tales of several groups of these elite.

Examples of the characters: James West-wood and his demon Lillith Rose- Human form, Elroy (And his demon), Eddie (And his caster)